Long day and I'm ready, I'm waiting for your call
'Cos I've made up my mind My heart aches with a hunger and the want that you were mine
No I cannot deny
So for one night
is it alright
That I give you..
My heart..my love..my heart
Just for one night My body..my soul
Just for one night My love..my love
For one night..one night..one night
When morning awakes me
Well I know I'll be alone
And I feel I'll be fine
So don't you worry about me I'm not empty on my own
For inside I'm alive
That for one night
it was so right
That I gave you...
My heart..my love..my heart
Just for one night
My body..my soul
Just for one night My love..I loved
For one night..one night..one night
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OKAY..maybe i'm really into women.
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tuesday night- jogging? and recharge my batteries? Tuesday, August 29, 2006
pics galore!
my sister and my cousins! fahmi and the really cute one is darwish!
thinking im the hottest girl in the world!
this picture was on bryanboy! heehee
my besties =)
hana's nephew, uzair's birthday party at macs
well anyways im outside now chilling at the living room nothing to do really. im watching maggi and me on the tv. and my lappy is on my lap now!! haha talk abt taking it literally.
anyways.. i thought of going for a jog later. but now im so bloated. actually dehydrated actually.
hmm..maybe i should go and jog now. since well i really have nothing better to do and i dont feel like doing any work.
so i guess the best option is to like run righT? then at least im not running so late at night to tell u the truth im just too tired and i dont really care
and in my head right.. hockey? what the hell is that?
forget that. urgh..sucks big time.
and yesh.. presentation finally over! but now..
its time to start my write up!!! bugger
got two write ups. many deadlines to rmb.
haisz.. think im gonna go for a jog now.. short one i guess. and a fucking slow one. :P
tata.. will post more pics tmr
--insignificant lies--
8:18 pm
wedding blues. monday blues. and whatever else that is blue. Sunday, August 27, 2006
well today is sunday. i am not as sick as i was before.
but im not at my optimum. really need to stop destroying my health.
but anyways yeah i went for the wedding in the end. it was nice to see norrul again.. =)
but she's going back to KL tonight..
so anyways.. photo time. hopefully blogger does not piss me off again.
TEACHERS DAY DINNER!!!
raihana and mazlin. raihana won best dressed with her.. ehem ehem.."new husband" mr shahroom me and shag..=))
and all the minahs plus one ahlian.. L-R: me, filza,mazlin,udiana,alifah,shag,shiqin,hairani,raihana,kamaliza
well thats all for now folks.. =)
--insignificant lies--
4:15 pm
alex parks. new laptop. and im fucking sick..again
now to start off. alex parks. my fav song from her. cry.
anyways yesh... was transferring files frm my pc to my lappy not sure what to name..but later la..
and god so many pics to put up here. god knows who reads anyways. but its for me really. so in ten years time i can look back on this webpage and so called reminisce abt the past. or something like that., :P
tmr is norrul's sister's wedding. dunno if im healthy enough to go.
yesh i have the flu.
got it yest thurs. why?
cos on thurs night sat al ameen till late smoked my ass off. and then went home. slept for two hours. and off to sch. stayed in sch doing my project till 4.30! and it was mother fucking hot and thats why i got sick.
so i went to the teachers day dinner. woodgrove ppl invited me. so sweet of them. so we came and ate. and took PICTURES! as always.
BUT...fucking assholic blogger is now down. so no pics today.
enjoy alex parks tho.. :P
--insignificant lies--
1:11 am
i've been abused!!! Saturday, August 19, 2006
well a lot of pics to post. vids and all that.
but i dunno. just not in the mood.
would rather discuss or actually give my two cents worth on what oprah did on last wed on channel 5..
it was abt woman who have let go of themselves because of bad experiences in relationships.
god.. that hit home. BIG TIME!
and you know what.. im at lost as to what to say.
guess now im not in the right state of mind.
argh bugger la..
well i shall go off now la..
anyways new word of the week.. BUGGER!!!!
--insignificant lies--
1:04 am
tired as fuck. horrible day. BIG realisation. Tuesday, August 15, 2006
yeah well.. tiring day.
monday blues all the fuckin way.
well i have some photos. perhaps later.
from my aunts wedding. the photos i mean. and some other stuff.
finally su came back! i have back my arm.
and well today had an interesting experience
and let me just say. BIG REALISATION! but i dunno if i can accept it because i know its not right somethings off. but i know it to be true (ie. what i realised.)
even in your own damn blog u cant truly say what u truly want to say.
so u keep it inside.
and i know YOU wont call me. not anytime soon. because i know you all too well. the type of person you are. i have seen so many of you. and you say you care.
HAH! fuck off. i dont believe a single thing you say. and im glad i did not give you what you want because at least i have some part of me
though i played a part. though i made some mistakes im gonna regret after this...
but at least hey im awake now.
my big realisation....... but why cant i accept it? isn't that what i want?
--insignificant lies--
12:40 am
NIE... teach less, learn more??? and what the F is wrong with my sleeping pattern? Wednesday, August 09, 2006
well school has officially started!!! yesterday had two lects. one eng and one science.
the eng once was bloody fucking hilarious. not cos the lecturer was HAHA funny.. but cos she SANG to us la!!!
hahahhaha.. i'll upload the song lyrics soon. its too happy for my blog really. but i'll put it on.
anyways.. science. fucking sickening. the guy was talking to himself. in his own world. syiok sendiri la!!!
waduh!
anyways moving along..
im half stoning. need to sleep i guess. but u noe me..
oh and todays two tutorials werent bad. only im afraid of the essays that i have to pass up. these two modules are psych mods. very profound u know..
well in hang in there farah..
freaks. nitez.
--insignificant lies--
12:27 am
eyes wide open, naked as we came. Sunday, August 06, 2006
well its the 6th of august. happy birthday mom!
anyways yeah so many pics to share and upload.
firstly trimmed my hair last wednesday.
BEFORE
AFTER!!
not much diff. just thinner and slightly shorter.. thus the key word..
TRIMMED!
anyways.. then what else..
thursday i went to the beach with hana! sentosa. tanjong beach.
chilled. took pics. laid there. swam across to the other mini island. swam back. showered.
then..AL AMEEN! managed to coordinate filza to join us there. she stayed and chatted for a bit. then she left. and we stayed on! as always..
friday
met fia and div at town managed to squeeze in a pic on train
we surprised div with a mini cake and candle and we sang a bday song as she came. we already bought this gift its a frame which u attached to this magnetic cubes which stick tog.. to spell divya haha..nvm see it to believe it. the prob was we had no pic.
so espionage work. we took the pic once we cut the cake.
then i had to go to the "toilet" TWICE to get it printed. hahaha..
div had a really good surprise.
then at night..went over to my aunts place to give my cousins tuition.
was wearing shades during the day.. and my cousins being the inquisitive ppl they are.. they had to try it on! and they're boys for god sakes!! even my 14 year old cousin tried it on.
now for some gayboy pics! hahahahhahaa
and just now..saturday night. celebrated my mom's bday at delifrance. sorry no pics. we forgot! haha..
but heres one of me and my sis..on the bus on the way back..
we look too sweet.
oooh and some star time!!
that is melanie griffith (aka wife of antonio banderas) she's lighting up for her 17 yr old daughter.
hmm..if only my mother was that cool.
but then again. im disturbed by this pic. which is why its up here!
anyways.. au revoir. ciao bella. and all that. time to get some shut eye.
ps. and happy birthday to a certain woman.. she who shall not be named. i still miss you. always. and i'll still love you always. even though its been four years since we truly spoke. since you truly saw me for me. since you felt for me.
despite the tragedy you made me realise who i am. and i thank you for that. not that you would read this. but i just wanted to thank you.
--insignificant lies--
2:20 am
loooseeenn up my buttons baby! Tuesday, August 01, 2006
am so fucking addicted to this song.. and plus these girls are FUCKING HOT!
esp the lead pussycat. she shld just be a solo act. what was she thinking? she cld b THE pussycat doll.
anyways..
buff-spiration!!!
look at her arms man!!! god.. nice! jessica biel..in case u guys dunno who.. kinda nice to have a dog to walk. but yah sure who am i kidding..
and what is up with meg ryan??? serious bad hair day. or is it she just cant be bothered no more??
and hahhaa.. was telling hana i'm gonna do a pam anderson for my wedding!!!!
i'm gonna wear a white bikini to my wedding. my guy's gonna wear jeans and thats all. and im gonna do a void deck wedding.. hahhaa..
but my pelamin( the throne that i sit on ) is gonna be lined with palm trees. the throne itself is gonna be made of bamboo wood.. kinda like a day bed.. or loung chairs made of wood or bamboo..
and then there'll be sand everywhere by the pelamin.. hahaha.. and everyone is gonna wear white.. white tropical flowers everywhere..
palm trees..
haha and im gonna tone up.. and get fake boobs to match my white bikini wedding!!! yeehaa!!!
hana says if i do that.. im gonna be in the malay newspapers. hahaha.. true that girl!
oooh and saw this pic.. latinas man..
no matter how skinny they are.. curves man!!! and the boobies.. hhaha but mine bettter..
and whats that dweeb of a guy doing chatting her up?? beats me!
anyways why so many celeb pics.. hahaha..
was reading www.hollywoodrag.com AGAIN!!! am addicted.
just like bryanboy.
im prone to addictions..
well adios.. till tmr for more bitching..
loosen up my buttons. any day ;)
--insignificant lies--
11:17 pm
the thought of being in love again... makes me... ???
its like you see other people being in love and they're happy and you're happy for them
and a part of you wants to be happy but when u really think about it.. are u up for it again? i mean its good when its good...
but u and i both know..nothing ever ever ever...
lasts.
so whats the point really? they say its better to have loved than never to have loved at all. is that right?
but how come when i love, when i just love someone so wholly and so irrevocably.. i feel like i've lost my mind and then they really make me lose my mind. to which point i look at the world and scream...
whats the point of being in love?
can i just have sex freely? and never fall in love? or just masturbate till the cows come home? i mean if being in love is supposed to make u feel sated.
but i guess it feels good to be in love. when you're higher than everyone else and when you look down and you see the rest of them not in love.. and you laugh haughtily because you're up there.. and you know in your heart love just is. it is what is.. it doesnt matter if its with tom, dick or harry(or tina, dana or harriet) because it just is..
and when i do fall in love again. please remind me... its temporary.. please remind me not to say forever.. and please above all remind me.. not to forget my life..
